Demi Lovato covers Self Magazine August 2012 for whom she’s showing her new beachy, sandy blonde hair. This is the look she’s keeping for X Factor auditions too. Although one guesses she’ll change it up for the rounds voted for by the public, she’ll be bored of the colour by then.
Inside the issue, photos for which are below, Lovato explains why she used to be compelled to self harm and how she’s coping now.
On why she used to self harm: “There were times I felt so anxious, almost like I was crawling out of my skin; that if I didn’t do something physical to match the way I felt inside, I would explode. I cut myself to take my mind off that. I just didn’t care what happened. I had no fear.”
On how she de-stresses: “I make time for myself and meditate. I’ve spent the past two years getting over an eating disorder and issues like self-harming and bipolar disorder. I have to work on this stuff every day. I’m reminded of that whenever I eat or feel down.”
On being more comfortable while still and quiet: “I haven’t used my cell in three months! Subconsciously, it was a crutch. When a room gets quiet, what do you do? Grab your phone! Now I can sit and have conversations with people.”
On her X Factor co-judges: “Britney [Spears] is such a sweet girl! We’ve gone through a lot of the same things, so we have a connection. Simon [Cowell]’s so funny and so cool, and LA [Reid], he’s really awesome. He seems really, really sweet so I’m excited to get to work with all of them. I was totally nervous about Simon, too. I was expecting him to be mean or something, because of American Idol, you know? He’s like so, just, real.”
On how her perception of beauty changed over the years: “I used to feel my most beautiful when I was on the red carpet or at events or something where I’m all dolled up. Now I feel like the moment when I feel most beautiful is when I’m able to hang out with a guy without my makeup on or lay on the beach with no makeup on and not even worrying about what my hair or what I look like before I fall asleep. When I’m confident enough to show myself without makeup on, that’s when I feel my most confident.”
On being diagnosed with bipolar disorder: “Finding out I had a real emotional disorder helped me put together the pieces of the puzzle. I remember being on my tour bus thinking, My life is so awesome right now, but I’m so depressed. Then, a few days later, I’d be on top of the world. It was really confusing. When I got diagnosed, my life made more sense.”
On her post-rehab natural therapy: “I’m treating myself with love and doing good things for my mind and soul.”
On what she does to keep herself healthy and fit: “I work out five or six days a week for my peace of mind, not to lose weight. I switch it up, I’ll run a few miles or bike from Santa Monica to Mariuna del Ray. I also love boxing or, when I’m sore, yoga.” – via Self Magazine.